If I ride him just right, he will get it.
This is the thought that runs over and over through my head as I worked with Encore last night. If my position could just be a little better, if my aids were just a little more accurate, if my balance was just a little more consistent, then Encore would succeed in doing the right thing.
Self-flagellation is, of course, default mode after a ride that had some very frustrating moments. There was a section of the most incredible stretching at the trot, where Encore's whole body was an upside-down U of supple, lifted, connected engagement, with his nose down to his knees and elastic springs in his legs. I thought, just, WOW.
But then there was a period of tension, rushing, and falling in through the shoulder. My irritation mounted as I thought, What am I doing wrong? If I was just a better rider, I could get my horse to do this. I am just going to end up with a crooked horse pointing the wrong way because I can't seem to communicate this correctly.
I was bone-tired, I've gotten far too much bad news this week, it was dark, and my temper was short. I will never let that out to Encore of course, but it still wreaked havoc in my head (a confusing, scary place at best). Over and over, I wondered why I couldn't just be better.
None of this actually improves one's riding, naturally, but it seems to be an inevitable destination for us at some point or another. Perhaps there are people who can remain eternally cheerful, but I suspect that we all have our moments of exhaustion and weakness. I remember when I didn't canter Solo for months on end, as I could get nothing but an unbalanced gallop out of him. I told myself, you should just sell this horse, you have no business owning something you are not even capable of riding a basic gait on. Dejected does not even begin to sum up how I felt then.
Looking back, I can see that I was wrong, of course, and those months were simply something we needed to both work through and learn from. With the help of one very good clinician, we found our canter again and went on to many triumphs. Objectively, I know that the journey with Encore will progress in the same way, but it can be hard to trust in that view of the forest when you keep banging your head on the tree in front of you.
My point to this musing is simply to share with you the internal argument between twoof the voices in my head aspects of my brain. So that when you are in your own dark, frustrated, jaw-clenching throes of a not-so-smooth training phase, you can remember that you are not alone. If horse training was easy, everyone would win Rolex, but alas, it entails an indescribably complex lifetime of lessons that would probably take ten actual lifetimes to absorb.
I have two choices: I can (a) give up or (b) give Encore a treat for trying (he also did some big, voluntary stretching in the left lead canter, good boy), take a nap, and come back another day. After that nap, it only takes one look into big, kind, innocent brown eyes to choose option b.
This is the thought that runs over and over through my head as I worked with Encore last night. If my position could just be a little better, if my aids were just a little more accurate, if my balance was just a little more consistent, then Encore would succeed in doing the right thing.
Self-flagellation is, of course, default mode after a ride that had some very frustrating moments. There was a section of the most incredible stretching at the trot, where Encore's whole body was an upside-down U of supple, lifted, connected engagement, with his nose down to his knees and elastic springs in his legs. I thought, just, WOW.
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I was bone-tired, I've gotten far too much bad news this week, it was dark, and my temper was short. I will never let that out to Encore of course, but it still wreaked havoc in my head (a confusing, scary place at best). Over and over, I wondered why I couldn't just be better.
None of this actually improves one's riding, naturally, but it seems to be an inevitable destination for us at some point or another. Perhaps there are people who can remain eternally cheerful, but I suspect that we all have our moments of exhaustion and weakness. I remember when I didn't canter Solo for months on end, as I could get nothing but an unbalanced gallop out of him. I told myself, you should just sell this horse, you have no business owning something you are not even capable of riding a basic gait on. Dejected does not even begin to sum up how I felt then.
Looking back, I can see that I was wrong, of course, and those months were simply something we needed to both work through and learn from. With the help of one very good clinician, we found our canter again and went on to many triumphs. Objectively, I know that the journey with Encore will progress in the same way, but it can be hard to trust in that view of the forest when you keep banging your head on the tree in front of you.
My point to this musing is simply to share with you the internal argument between two
I have two choices: I can (a) give up or (b) give Encore a treat for trying (he also did some big, voluntary stretching in the left lead canter, good boy), take a nap, and come back another day. After that nap, it only takes one look into big, kind, innocent brown eyes to choose option b.