Because that's pretty much what it's like trying to pin down sentences in my brain anymore. Little buggers are elusive...I know my last post was not entirely upbeat.
But a life is always far more complicated to actually DO than it may appear.
It could appear that my life is its own paradise. And there are many good things:
- The farm is beautiful in every kind of light.
- Fall field work, aside from the 4-hour drive to get to the watershed, is usually a lovely change from the heat-stroke ridden July trips.
- Two chestnut faces greet me twice a day, each voice unique.
But I’m doing my best to break everything into 5-minute increments. My brain can just about DO 5 minutes. And then I can check something, however small, off the list.
Well, my knee surgeon told me in 2012 I'm not allowed to run. But I have a match in my hand (which means I’m probably burning my fingers, heh), though it flickers. And I'm walking as fast as I can.
And damn it, I'm going to at least see what the walls of the tunnel are made out of. And then my horses & I are going to gallop out into blazing sunlight.
At which point we’ll probably trip & throw a shoe, but hey, someone’s got to provide comic relief!
HUGS FOR YOU! You're a tough cookie and I'm sure you can get through whatever's happening in your life right now. <3 Saying a little prayer for ya this morning!
ReplyDeleteThanks! This week's field work...and next week...and the next week...is an exhausting, but good distraction. Aminals!!
DeleteBBIAB--trying to pin down greased weasel.
ReplyDeleteOk, I'm admitting I had to Urban Dictionary that (yes, I just made that a verb) -- and am now back to thank you for the LOL! ;)
DeleteWeasels and words are tricky things. Take your time and be good to yourself. Five minutes at a time is good.
ReplyDeleteJust like hobbits...tricksy, always tricksy. Thank your for the good wishes, five minutes is working out to be fairly feasible -- what's harder is training the people around to not bother to ask questions about anything that is happening more than 5 minutes from now, heh.
DeleteDamn squeaky weasels always get the grease...
ReplyDeleteI'm slogging through the trying-to-get-a-mortgage tunnel as we speak, so I hear you on the five minute thing - that's about the extent of my attention span these days. Sending ♡♡♡ from the coast. :D
Nice, I see what you did there... You have my mortgage empathy. Since I got my first one in 2007 pre-market crash, it was so easy, I think I signed ~3 sheet of paper. The farm....was War & Peace with some Dostoyevsky added on after the OED. I believe I was handed at least one national forest... O.o
DeleteYou can do it!
ReplyDeleteFrom your lips to the universe's ears!! <3
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